the "change"

change: it can happen so quickly and you might not even not notice when it does happen...


that is what happened to me..
i don't even know when it occurred.
maybe i just finally realized it.
my CLOSE friends probably noticed it.
but just kept it to themselves...
i don't even know how i changed
i just can feel i have...
i wish i could find out.. how? when? why?
i just don't understand why...
and when did it happen..
and why did i finally JUST realize it.
how can a person just change..?
uhhhhhhhhhhh!
i feel like i have become more
mean
rude
blunt
open....

i don't know.
maybe this is who i have always been
i just didn't show it
like a flower that just bloomed.


i don't know it feels like people like me less since "the change"
and i don't like that
people use to tell me "oh, lynzie you are so nice, you are a really sweet girl"
and now people are saying "you aren't really all that nice"

:(

goshhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!