mixed up...

EVERYTHING is soooo difficult lately...
like nothing is going right around me?
right now it feels like my life is dissolving around..
like my life is spinning downward...
i don't know
it seems like all of these little things around me are happening
and all of these little things are going to lead up to some huge event!
and then BAM just like that my life is going to change completely..
but who knows it could be for the best?
i am sick of all of this drama!!
gosh i am sick of being in the middle!!
i am sick of everything.
things keep happening and i don't know..
maybe it is a sign..
maybe it means it wasn't meant to be..
maybe we should all just go back how it used to be..
there was you guys
and then there was KAL!
maybe we should try to work it out.
maybe God is just is just putting us through all of these tests..
maybe in the end it will better everything...
i don't know

i am just rambling now!